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Monday, May 21, 2007 @ 6:45 PM really damn pissed with teoliyun jus now cuz she say my DBSK!!! *i'm okay le!* i also stunned that i got so angry when she say DBSK sia~ but anyway, fuck off if you wan say anything negative about them. if not i will bite you! :B LOL! tml no criterion workshop! yipee~! it means gg home early!!! :D saw this at huixin's blog.. so credits to her! LOL! Yucheon & YuHwan (yucheon=yoochun!) the words is [] is what the person who translated was saying. -And ever since then you returned to the bright/cheery Yucheon? "Yes. But, Dad and Mom came home late everyday, there were many instances when they returned after we fell asleep. There were reasons like that. Certainly, my loneliness didn't completely vanish.... But because my brother is five years younger, I felt like if I started sniffling even, he would probably follow along and cry too, so in front of him, I made it a priority to stay bright and energetic. Mentally, the hardest time was probably junior high You think about it now, and you'd say it's a phase in ones life that everyone goes through, 'puberty' It was 7th grade [could be eighth, i don't know if he's going by Korean or American] in which the situation and circumstances were the primal causes for me secluding myself and closing my heart to others Honestly, I didn't want to talk to ANYONE, and at that time, I just listened to music only non-stop. And that state continued on to around Sophomore year [again, could be Junior] Anyway, I thought that if I didn't do anything then I'd keep thinking weird thoughts [i think he's implying thoughts of abandonment or hurting himself in whatever way... because it's really ambiguous the way he says 'weird thoughts'] so upon entering high school, firstly i began various part-time jobs. At that time, our family wasn't exactly 'wealthy' i was determined if not anything to prevent my brother from being in similar circumstances. Whatever it was that my brother needed, I provided them with the money from my part-time jobs, so that he'd endure no discomfort/inconveniences. I often picked him up at school too. Truthfully, I might've been doing the things that you'd most likely want/expect from your parents. I gave him all the love and affection without restraint, and perhaps through that the two of us were able to escape from that lonely mindset. And so even now, he and I have a really good relationship." Arena37. Special (Yucheon solo interview) [Letter] A letter you wrote that remains in your memory Yucheon- There are many. When I was in America, around 8th grade, I wrote a Christmas letter to my brother. That was the first time I gave him allowance too. What did you write in the letter? Yucheon- hm... "Be strong" and "Merry Christmas, things like that [Be strong is an expression that literally means give/put forth strength but roughly translates into be strong, endure..etc] Was your brother happy? Yucheon- yes, he said that he was thankful. We are Curious DBSG While you were crying at the MKMF Awards, what were you thinking about? I thought of my younger brother YuHwan and my parents the most. I cried a lot but if I were to pinpoint what it was that I thought of the most, it would be family. YuHwan and I both didn't speak much. But unlike himself, once when I was in LA for a show, I watched him getting closer with the other members and start talking more and it made me really happy. But that day, we were on the bed talking with our father in the hotel room and suddenly YuHwan started crying really sorrowfully, for over an hour and he fell asleep crying like that. It was then when I really wanted to look out for him more. He's my one and only brother. And just the image of me unable to care for him, things like that was heartbreaking/frustrating [both meanings conveyed in the Korean word used here]. [okay now here he says something that's kind of vague and because it's in the text I can't really differentiate which one he's saying but i'll provide both options] Of course, YuHwan doesn't really say these things [things meaning what Yucheon feels he couldn't do for YuHwan] OR Of course, YuHwan isn't all that good to me either [basically something like, YuHwan isn't perfect either... but not in a bitter way... just matter of factly] [end of ambiguous translation] But still, being the older brother, I felt I should provided even that one thing other older brothers would've provided. Things like that made me feel very sorry towards him. Most valuable possession Bracelet. It's been over a year since I've worn this. It's the first present that my brother got for me, this bracelet. I hardly, really, ever have taken it off. Even when I'm shooting the jacket, even if they say I absolutely can't because it doesn't fit the concept, then I'd raise it all the way up here [probably points somewhere up his armslength] and tape it there, so that it won't come down. To that extent, I did my best to never take it off. The bracelet from my brother, his first present to me. things he's said from his "Thanks To"s 1st Storybook Yuhwan... I'm always praying for you. Be faithful to God. okie? [actually in English] 2nd Storybook The person I love first and foremost in all the world, my little brother Yuhwan I miss you a lot [in English] 4th Storybook My one and only family and... though he's a pain someone I love more than anyone else my YuHwan [he uses a phrase 'rot my insides' parents say to their kids a lot... things they'd say if they caught you not studying and watching DBSG videos on youtube the whole night, or not listening to them... to more serious things... like getting caught drinking underage... hehe spending all their money] 3rd Album DVD+CD ver. Lastly, to my little brother YuHwan who's probably having a very hard time right now this one's for you... Yuhwan, I love you... Be strong!!! [he uses that phrase again] On YaShimManMan To YuHwan YuHwan, it's me [your older brother, hyung] Firstly, I'm so sorry for not taking care of you well and leaving you there by yourself. Occasionally when I'm on the phone with you and I hear you crying... I act like I'm not in front of you but my heart aches too. Really, I'm working hard so I can be responsible for you [like he's doing his best to fulfill his duty/responsibilites towards him as an older brother, taking care of him..etc] I love you.......... Japan concert, secret card [???] Micky#4 To compensate, the presents Micky recently bought for his little brother are, no less than a PC & Mixer set! [to write music] [right in between here is a picture of Yucheon and Yuhwan at their second concert in Korea] the fan comments on how warmly YuHwan gazes at Yucheon and that he went to see his brother for all three nights of the concert. Japan Tour Pamphlet Something you personally cherish? The thing I treasure in my heart is my brother's existence. It is the thing that sustains me. His existence holds my back. [here, my guess is it stands for that gesture where you kind of rub someone's back? or give them like a firm pat squeeze on the shoulders... iono.. T_T] original Korean: Bestiz 눈꽃송이 noonggotsongee + soompi _________________________________________________ yuhwan is yoochunnie's bro btw. he's super duper nice to his brother!!! whom is same age as me.. maybe i'm older than him by a few months! and he's cute to be yoochun's bro! LOL! really love micky sia! he's a super nice guy!!! :D |
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